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Both of them.  I have two scales and both of them are inaccurate I think.  I have a digital and a mechanical.  If you stand on the digital 10 times it will give 10 different readings varying by 4lbs or so.  The Mechanical one weighs about 10 lbs heavier than the digital.

I know the mechanical is not right, I have been told by everyone that weighs on it that it is way too high.  So, how am I supposed to judge my progress based on inconsitant readings?

I would like to buy a “Doctors” type scale but geez those things are pricey.  I’ve been looking on Craigslist, but with not much luck.

I guess until then, I will just have to go by how I feel and pretty much throw my scale out the window.

Seems to be a pattern with me.  I start dieting, drop a bunch in the first week… and then slowly gain half back.  So today I am going to re-examine my eating patterns and try and find the flaw.  I’ve gotten through this before, and dammit i can again!

I have been studying up on weight loss and nutrition for awhile now, and while I am not a professional, I consider myself to know a lot.

But, just as with other things in life, the more I know, the more confused I get.

First… How is it possible that I lost 11 pounds last week 4 of which in one day? Probably lots of water weight.

Second… Yesterday I ate the same as always, rode 22 miles on the bike, which burned 700 cals and gained 2 pounds.

I don’t let it bother me much.

Just confuzzled.

I’m having trouble with the fact that my 5yr old daughter Rachel is picking up some of my bad food habits.  Now, she is not overweight or underweight by any means.  But in the last few months she seems to be preoccupied with “how much” food she gets at a meal.  She’ll say things like “I know that one is mine, cuz it’s got more than Brandon’s” (Her Brother)

She also says things like “Is that All i’m getting?”  Or she asks for seconds before she’s finished the first helping.  I find it bad that like me, she is already thinking about more while she’s eating.

Another thing she says sometimes that makes me feel like a cow, is when she’ll get up and leave her food for some reason she always has to make sure Daddy’s not going to eat it while she’s gone.

I mean, is this what i’ve become?  My own daughter thinks I’m going to take her food?

Sometimes I think that the reason i’ve gotten so big is partially because of the speed in which I eat. Sometimes it astounds me and others how fast I can scarf down a meal.

I think upbringing has something to do with it. It’s almost like it was a race growing up, because you had to finish first, just incase you wanted seconds. If you were too slow, there might not be any left.

Usually I am the first one finished at my dinner table.

I wonder if there are others like me?

I’ve always struggled with my weight.  It’s always been a series of ups and downs, i’m sure like everyone else.  As a kid, I was a normal weight until I was around 10 years old or so.  Then I grew a belly.  Still not horribly overweight, but the beginning.

Junior High.  Was slightly overweight, got a cold and didn’t eat for about a week and lost about 18 lbs.  I guess that was my first “Diet”

I was about 170-180lbs, going into Freshman year of High school, and I thought that was overweight.  Being as naive as I was, I just stopped eating.  Only having 1-2 Rice cakes per day along with a couple of bottles of Diet 7-up.  Lifted weights twice a day and ran 1-2 miles per day.  Got down to 135, which was entirely too low.  But I felt great… for a while.

All through High School I Fluctuated between 155-190.  Sometimes up, sometimes down.  After high school, my weight gradually went up to 255 by 2003 when I was 25 years old.  I ate healthier averaging 1200 cals per day and exercising and somehow got back down to 185 which was great.

But here I am again.  Seems like a neverending cycle. At the end of 2007 I was 258.

Between Dec 31st, and mid march I lost 28lbs.  But over the last 2 months I gained back to 238.

I pray that this time I can stick with it for good.